Yesterday I felt like crap most of the day so I didn’t clean for Wendy. She, in her infinite cuteness and generosity, took this as a sign that I really, really, really love her. In her thinking, I would only really clean for someone I was intimidated by, or uncomfortable with – as I wouldn’t want to reveal the slob I really am to a stranger, but to someone I love and am close with they get me warts and all. I can see her logic – I would tell her not to clean for me either, but my house is so disgusting these days I’m almost looking for an EXCUSE to clean, you know? I will be doing a bit of lysol handiwipe wipe down and a bit of vacuuming. Because I will feel better.
I have a good excuse for the state of disrepair that is my house. I’ve been trying and trying to get it all straightened out and cleaned up but a consultation with the calendar the other day proved that I haven’t been home two weekends in a row since before New Year’s. And I will continue to be gone every other weekend through June. That’s a lot of time away. And not a lot of continuum to get things done. While all of the away time has been good time, I’m kind of sick of it.
G did book us a mini-vacation though! That’s okay! We’re going here. It’ll be a hectic ten days – wedding on Saturday (better get kicking on that BDFS!) then Bermuda M-Th, then MDSW F and S. Then I’ll be home for a weekend then off again. Then home, then off. Then home, then off. Now that I think of it, I might have two weekends home in April. But that’s right before our big week.
So when I wasn’t cleaning yesterday I spun a little – I’m trying to get this pink stuff done because I’m anxious to spin up my new PS Yellow/Orange. Then I pushed to finish a sock. It didn’t take as long as I thought:
I’m still not sure about how it looks on my foot. And I’m really not sure about the toe.
Gives camel toe a whole new meaning. I mean, my toe looks like I’ve got a hoof. I’ll make the other one, but I may just go back to a regular toe. And then I’ll redo the toe on this one. Otherwise, I’m happy with my modifications: I added another full repeat on the leg – 4.5 – and I did the first two repeats on size 2s (Addis) then switched to size 1s. I did my regular jaywalker heel and I’m very happy with that – if it ain’t broke – don’t fix it!
I was going to change the title of the post because I was originally going to be talking about this niggling feeling I’ve had – you know when things just all of a sudden start to fall into place and everything is going really well and then you wake up in a cold sweat and think everything’s going so well! What’s going to happen now? Then I thought I woudn’t talk about it but I’m kind of in that place. I was telling my sister about all the good stuff that’s been happening while she was away and then I kind of had a mini-panic attack. Are things supposed to go this well? I mean, I’ve worked hard to get things where they are, but still? Shouldn’t it be harder? Or not as good? Or what’s going to happen now? I don’t like this about myself – this pessimism for lack of a better word – and I’m trying to just enjoy the moment but I can’t help thinking the other shoe’s about to fall. Is Mercury still in retrograde? Because I’m a Capricorn and we usually do well when eveyone else is miserable – so that we can get back to our miserableness when everyone else is doing well, which is most of the time. Better go check my horrorscope. Right after I clean a bathroom. Thanks for reading.