Yesterday, Georgie and I had one of those life changing kind of days. And then we headed to the beach. (Ba dum dum!)

We’re more Fall season beach goers – often times hitting the Jersey Shore way into October when only the die hards are there. G actually goes in the water too! He’s NUTS! Yesterday’s beach scene was straight out of Jaws. The water was so packed with kids it looked like a community pool instead of the Atlantic Ocean.

We had a nice day, but I didn’t get much done, knitting, crochet or otherwise.

My knitting has definitely hit a state of flux. Unfortunately, the Bee Shawl and I have hit an impasse. I’m not sure where I went wrong with it – probably a case of don’t knit lace when you should be asleep – and anything that brings me to tears gets put away for a while. So don’t look for it here.

I finished the last square of Section V on Babette and stalled out. I’ve even stalled out on the second mini monkey I’ve put off far too long. I knit a row and then put it down. Maybe it’s the Summer finally catching up with me.

This morning I feel awful and I still have a ton of work to catch up on so that’s what I’ll be doing today. There is one bright spot in all this – look what’s come home!

Thank you so much Tina! I can’t tell you how surprised and happy I was to pull it out of the box! And shocked! There may have been tears, but don’t kid yourself – it doesn’t take much these days. I LOVE YOU! THANK YOU!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Hi – this isn’t the blog entry I thought I’d be writing today. I have some SPECTACULAR stuff to show you, but alas, it will wait for tomorrow.

In the meantime, I wanted to thank you all for reading the last couple of months. If it feels like I haven’t been putting my all into the blog, the truth is, I haven’t. Too much is going on behind the blog and as much as I would love to be shouting from the rooftops right now, the time is not right. But it’s coming! I swear, it’s coming so soon I can taste it.

I am trying the best I can to keep the connection going. I miss you all, my confidantes. It’s not me to be quiet about anything, but I’m learning lots of important lessons about patience and necessary silences.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I appreciate you and know that blogging is a two way street. This blog would be nothing without you.

L, C

Friday sucked ass, but today? TODAY IS A GREAT DAY!

And tomorrow, maybe I’ll have a finished sock for you!
Thanks for hanging with me.
L, C

It’s not even 8AM and already I’m in one of those moods where, trust me, it’s better for all of us if I just sign off for the weekend. Besides, I’ve got nothing to show you anyway.

Thank you for all the lovely comments on my Moth shawl. I really appreciate it, and I do love the shawl. I hope that was clear.

Have a great weekend everyone!

to thank you for the love. So I’ll just say thank you anyway. Thank you! I felt it! I really really did! And yesterday went better than I ever could’ve hoped. I promise I’ll tell you all about it soon. Patience, my pretties.

Now it’s off to knit. And knit and knit and knit. I’ve got a goal: a finished Moth before the weekend’s up.

A month or two ago I asked for some good wishes. I was pretty selfish about it because I didn’t tell you WHY I wanted good wishes, just that I needed some. Today, I’m back again. Even though I’ve been a pretty shitty blogger as of late and an even worse knitter, I hope you’re still out there and can spare me a “Hope that Cara has a good day today!” kind of thing.

I’m not pregnant, there is no book, but it turns out that today might be one of the most important days of my life. How’s that for tweaking your interest and not saying anything? I know I’m being terribly selfish and I promise that one day soon I will tell you everything. It’s killing me not to say, but it’s best for my sanity to try to remain quiet.

Thank you so much. I really can feel the love out there, no matter how corny it sounds. I hope to do a lot of knitting this weekend so I have something to show you on Monday and regular blogging will resume as well. I miss the blogging almost as much as the knitting.

Have a fabulous weekend! And thank you! Thank you! THANK YOU!
L, C

One day I’ll knit again, spin again, maybe even crochet again. Not today though. I’ve got a job this afternoon (a party – always hard work!) then some overnight fun, and a job early tomorrow. Then it’s home to await the kids! My house is considerably neater than it was three days ago, which I’m happy about, but I’m tired and there’s still a lot more work to be done.

I miss my knitting, desperately (especially since it would really calm me down right about now) and I miss you. If I’m not back here before the 4th – have a great holiday. And to the rest of you, have a fantastic weekend.
L, C

No pictures today. I’m pictured out. Feel free to move along if pictures are your thing.

Today is clean the toilets day at my house. I’ve been up since 8 and have only started to blog at almost 11AM and not a toilet has been cleaned. But that’s what I’m doing today.

I’ve been really good lately with discipline. I’m on a diet. It doesn’t have a fancy name or anything just the I’m fatter than I’ve ever been and I can’t stand it anymore so I’m not eating stuff diet. Basically I’m trying not to skip meals and eat more often but smaller portions and better stuff and no desserts and no soda and it seems to be working okay. I’m maintaining at the least and dropping a few pounds along the way. At least I’m back to where I was before the vacation. Vacation killed me. If I could only add the exercise in again I think I’d be golden. It’s too hot to exercise though. I hate Summer.

I’ve also been really disciplined in the work department. Monday I told myself I wasn’t allowed to knit until I had finished a certain amount of work AND fold the extremely large pile of laundry taking over the den. I did both and by the time I was done it was around 11:30PM. I knit one measly row on Moth and went to bed. Tuesday I was up very early because I had a 10AM shoot in Central Park. HOT Central Park. Like get back in my car and the external thermometer reads 110 degrees F Central Park. (That was because my car was in the sun, I suspect it wasn’t really that hot temperature wise, but add in the humidity and I think I’m making a fair assessment.) I SUCK in the heat. I get really really sweaty and gross (and not the good kind of sweaty and gross that comes with exercise) and I get irritable and tired and nasty. I ran a few errands, came home, ate, and set to work again. By the time I was finished with the job I was working on it was around 9PM. I told G that I wasn’t going to do any cleaning, because today is for cleaning, and I was just going to knit. The thing is, though, I got into bed to watch the boob tube and knit and I just couldn’t do it. I was so tired I just layed there and thought about my knitting instead. How pathetic is that?!? But I had discipline.

Discipline sucks.

So today I must clean all the bathrooms in my house. There are three. They are grody. And that’s being kind. Today I take a mini-break from photography work to clean. Say it with me: P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

Blogging might be scarce the next week or so for a few reasons:

1) Discipline. Blogging takes up time that I should really be spent doing other things. Mostly I can use it to procrastinate, but I’m way behind and it’s time to prioritize. My house is disgusting and my work is piling up and I’m not knitting…blogging takes a backseat, unfortunately.

2) I’m not knitting. See number 1. I’ve got nothing new to show you! If I don’t blog for a couple of days and that gives me a chance to knit, then I can come back with a fabulous knit to actually blog about. I know I don’t need to knit to blog but cleaning and work are not interesting. If I can find some way to make that interesting, I will try, but otherwise I’m just boring myself.

3) Not sure there is a three. Can’t think of a three. Damn! I thought there was a three! Oh well. Three is that I may blog every day in order to keep my sanity. Or I may not. Depends on how much work I can accomplish over the next week or so. NOW I remember three! My sister and the kids are coming up for July 4th – as they do every year – so I’m cleaning for them and I’m working all weekend and then I’m hanging with them, so yet another reason I might be a bit absent.

Excuses, excuses, but I’m really really tired. There’s all this other stuff going on too, but I can’t talk about it yet and it’s making me anxious a bit and emotional and it’s all good, but with the heat and the work and the cleaning I’m so tired. I couldn’t even knit last night, that’s how tired.

One of the best parts about being an adult is learning your limits. It’s an incredibly hard lesson to learn, but I think I’m getting better at it the older I get. Learning when to say: I would love to do that, but I just can’t right now. In the old days I would try to do absolutely everything and then I would crash and burn – rather spectacularly, if I might add – but I’m too old to crash and burn anymore. And hopefully way too smart.

Wish me luck on the bathrooms. I’m going to need it.
L, C

ETA: I have nothing against a cleaning person – in fact I had one for many years. Then she quit/we fired her and we haven’t had one since. For awhile I looked for one and they were all either ridiculously expensive or not good and then we gave up and the house has been a mess ever since. Now I’m in the position of getting to the point where I wouldn’t be embarrassed to have someone clean it – there’s crap everywhere. Trust me. The goal is to get someone in here again PRONTO! As I said above, the older I get the smarter I get.