Blahs

I’m depressed. And while this may have A LOT to do with it (Kerstin, have you seen this?), it’s not the only thing.

I think I caught the January blahs going around. Before I left on vacation I was doing good. Now I’m feeling overwhelmed. My house is falling down around me, literally. As I write this there are men on a platform HANGING outside my windows (yes, three windows, covering three rooms – it’s a big fucking platform) drilling into the side of my BRICK highrise. If my head doesn’t explode first, I’m going to kill someone. Preferably beginning with the guy who waved to me as he hung by my bedroom window.

I have taxes to prepare. I bought TurboTax thinking any accountant I lay out big bucks for is just going to plug in numbers to TT anyway. So I bought it. The taxes are now my responsibility. I spent all day yesterday getting my business in order. My sister is going to help me set up Quickbooks, but until then, it’s sort of a pencil and paper operation. I think I got it all – but I still get nervous I’m missing something. Credit cards are actually a good thing sometimes. I try really hard to charge everything for the business – so I can just do a data dump from the credit card company for all of the charges.

My poor camera is still dead, and dying more and more as the seconds go by. I’m actually pretty sad about it. This was the camera that started it all. I’m taking it in to the Canon hospital today – but I’m not expecting any miracles. (Maybe secretly I just want yet ANOTHER new camera? SHHHHHHH! Don’t even think it!)

On the knitting front, (that’s why we’re here, I guess) I started the first Picot-Boo sleeve and I actually did some work on my Ribby Cardi. I’d like to get that done pretty quickly – it should be an easy knit. I enjoyed what I knit of it this weekend, so we shall see. In my mind I’m also designing my father’s sweater, a cardigan for myself and the new baby’s blanket. I was toying with the idea of placing hearts around the blanket in squares – maybe hearts and stars, but I may have given up on that. Too much thinking and I just want to knit the blanket. I may think about forgoing any kind of pattern and doing stockinette (it’s so soft!) and a ribbon/satiny border, you know something soft for baby. We’ll see. Too many projects in my head. I can’t concentrate.

More good news: yesterday the 100th person signed onto K1R2! I find that absolutely incredible. Today starts the discussion of The Plot Against America. I posted at around midnight last night, so excited, and as of yet no one’s commented. I know, I know. I shouldn’t expect people to be losing sleep over this, but it’s like, you know, my baby. I want it to be great.

Back to feeling sorry for myself and getting some work done. I have to pick up my best friend at the airport today. She’s in for about 24 hours. She’ll hold me up; she always does.