Taking a page from Mamacate, it’s Wednesday, so let it rip!
~ I’m sitting here waiting for the new bed to be delivered. Remember what happend with the last one? Welp, I’m waiting again. Hopefully this one will have the right dimensions. The last one seemed to be a combination of a California King (72×84) and an Eastern King (76×80). This bed is 72×80. Uh, what? So they made us a new one. Actually this is the third delivery date. My building only allows deliveries between 9-5 and the first time they came I was sure to tell them about this – well they said they’d be there in the morning and didn’t show until 4:30. So when they scheduled it again they told me they’d be there between 9-5 and remembering the first delivery I was like fine. And then the phone rang at 7:55 AM asking for directions because they were around the corner. No go. G was pissed! Then we had another date, which I had to cancel. And here we are again. Luckily I called this morning and they said they’d be there after 11. So I went out to run at about 9:30. Yay!
~ Speaking of running, I finished week one! Yahoo! When I’m doing the early weeks of the program, I tend to do three days. Once the running times start getting longer and longer I’ll move to four or five days before moving up. It’s important to pace yourself – not move up in distance too fast – so you don’t get injured. It was nice today – I could totally tell I was running faster (even though I’m not running much) because I take the same route and I ended farther along today than I did the other two days I ran. It’s like riding a bike too, how fast the breathing and stride hits a rhythm. Your body doesn’t forget. Oh and to answer Karma‘s question, I wear a watch with a stopwatch and look at it while I’m running. Not the best method, but it works.
~ I just had some lunch – bbq chicken breast left over from dinner last night. I’m trying to eat more often during the day. It’s not unusual for me to go until about 1 or 2 or sometimes 3PM without eating anything. I do drink water all day long, a big Nalgene bottle by my side which G gifted me a couple of weeks ago. Back to eating – it’s not good for me to skip meals. The anxiety starts up at around 1PM. I know what it is and I still don’t eat. Yesterday, though, I was hungry for a snack and the cupboards are pretty bare so I had some potato chips dipped in red wine vinagrette salad dressing. About an hour later I was feeling kind of funky – nauseous a little and just out of sorts. By the time I went to bed I had one of the worst cases of indigestion ever. It was like fire in my esophagus. I ended up sleeping sitting up. Ugh. Not fun.
~ Do you watch soap operas? I’ve been watching since I was a little girl, a habit picked up from my mom. Days of Our Lives and Another World are the originals. I jumped on the General Hospital bandwagon during the whole Luke and Laura fiasco and it stuck. And when my sister was home with Max, she got into Passions, which she’s since gotten me into – I love that in the info on my TV it says the zaniest soap since Dark Shadows – it definitely is nuts. My faves though have always been General Hospital (I’m a HUGE Sonnylicious fan – that is TOTALLY my type – dark and dark and sexy) and Another World. When they took AW off the air is was awful! And then, SoapNet brought it BACK! Lately I’ve been really getting into it – I tivo it and watch it in the evenings. It’s great to know what’s happening, but at the same time there are still surprises – characters I don’t remember, plot lines I forgot. But it’s still my old fave AW. It’s been a lot of fun – for a lot of reasons – to have this soap back in my life. I can’t wait until they get to Vicky and Ryan!!!!
~ G set it up so that I get cable TV on my computer. So I watch my soaps while I’m working – generally I’m working on pictures. It works out well. If I miss them one day, I don’t care. I don’t TIVO them. I only TIVO Another World because it’s on at the same time as Days.
~ I’ve also been tivoing Family Guy. I swear there’s at least one or two or three jokes each episode that have me howling. And last night I finally saw the last two minutes of the season finale of Gilmore Girls. I missed it when it originally aired. Next week is the season opener and I’ve already read spoilers going into the sixth show. How do you feel about spoilers? Somehow they don’t ruin it for me – I guess it depends on the show though. I would NEVER seek out a spoiler on 24, but GG is okay. I read spoilers for General Hospital too.
~ I didn’t knit anything yesterday. Tired from the weekend I guess. I thought I might start swatching for my dad’s aran sweater that I’m planning on making, but then I saw this lace pattern in a Barbara Walker book that I had seen before and once again I was completely and utterly tantalized. I want to use it to make my own lace shawl, but I don’t know where to start. I posted a message on the Summer of Lace board, so we’ll see if anyone has any suggestions. I want it to be a triangular shawl with a border you knit as you go. I hope I can figure it out. I think it will be beautiful – it already is in my mind. I guess in the end I could make a rectangular shawl – that would completely work.
~ This fall/winter is going to be the season of the cardigan. I’ve got a few kids knits to do and I want to make myself the Everyday Cardigan using this gorgeous Manos. I think about it everyday. Short Rows has to be finished first. Too many projects.
~ My business is really growing. I’m booked pretty much every weekend into October. I don’t think I had one job last September. I’m getting repeat customers too. It’s so wonderful to see the kids growing up in my pictures. I start teaching again on Sept 21. The last class I taught was a disaster, but I’m hopeful about a new one.
~ I need to be writing.
~ I hope Roger Federer wins the US Open. I don’t really care who wins between Agassi and Blake – I’m not really a fan of American Male Tennis Players. That’s not true. I like Vinnie Spadea (I’m not Afraid-a-Ya) because he is an utter goofball. And I used to LOVE Sampras. I
don’t like to watch women’s tennis at all. Actually, to be honest, the only reason I watch ANY tennis is because of G.
~ We’re coming up on the anniversary of our first IVF attempt. I think this is why I’ve been so anxious lately. I tend to turn all extreme emotion into anxiety as a super fucked up way of (not) dealing with things. And they keep showing the promo for that NBC show I don’t want to think about. Between that and the NJ PSAs on Post-Partum depression, which absolutely kill me, I may never get pregnant.
~ I think, in the end, this post will be really boring to most people. I’m sorry for that. Please come back.
Bed’s still not here. An hour after I started this. I’m hungry again too. Crap.
Not bored, but I too am bothered by that ad on NBC – maybe for different reasons. Hang in there & don’t forget to breathe – sometimes something so simple is enough to distract you.
Go eat!!!
Keep almonds and protein bars around (and apples)and take care of YOU.
Okay, you wrote so much I hope I remember everything I want to tell you!
Yes, I watch soaps. Used to watch Days but it got too farfetched. Yah, I know, it’s a soap, but still. And I went to high school with Kristian Alfonso, in case that impresses you. 😉
Gilmore Girls is a favorite around here. I haven’t seen spoilers so if you’re willing to share I’d love to hear them!
Hope the bed comes soon. Keep going with the running! I’m so impressed that you can get out there and get moving. Me, I just like to sit on the couch with my knitting and As the World Turns!
that everyday cardi is going to be stunning. what have you been sleeping on up til now? did the bed come yet?
The running will help with the anxiety…or at least it helps me. Every time I’ve tried something like meditation or deep breathing or creative visualisation, I want to throw dishes after about a minute of it. Walking fast or running is a good combo of deep breathing and tiring out whatever it is in me that’s running itself ragged worrying about the Issue of the Minute.
That said, I’m dealing by eating potato chips and not following my own advice. Crap. Time to get them runnin’ shoes on again…
Just wanted to stop in and say that I think it’s great that you’re running and meeting your other goals. I have been meaning to write you a longer, more thoughtful comment about what helps me through my crazy periods. I know that all depressions and anxieties are different and that severity is a scale that slides, but for what it’s worth, these are the non-medication-oriented things I do:
1) Get out of bed early. (And then make my bed so that I don’t get back into it.) I do this even if I haven’t slept, and if it’s really bad you can bet I haven’t.
2) Exercise daily. Cardio is best because of the high it gives you. Running and spinning are my cardios of choice.
3) Shower before noon. (This is made easier by the cardio – you’ll want to shower!)
4) Accomplish one task that feels difficult. (This is usually a task that would not be difficult at all at another time.)
5) Make at least one good, balanced meal a day with fresh ingredients and do the dishes afterward.
6) Make contact – in person – with at least one person who I don’t know well enough to be on depressed autopilot around. The less well I know them the better – it forces me to concentrate on being social and move outside myself.
7) Praise myself liberally for doing all of the above.
8) Repeat. Each day. One day at a time. Staying liberal with the praise. Every little bit counts.
To me, it sounds like these are the things you’re doing now, so my comment may just serve to remind you that you are not alone. You aren’t, you know. And you can do this. One step at a time. Repeat.
xox,
Ha! Nice post title! I just got it. Better late than never I guess. Some of NBC’s fall programming is reprehensible. I remember one season I boycotted the Fox network because some of their shows were so offensive. Come to think of it, I may still be boycotting them, I haven’t watched Fox in so long…
I _hate_ the post-partum PSA’s. They are so depressing in and of themselves. Every time I accidently hear one, I want to go and hug my kid tight, tight, tight. I absolutely want the general public to understand that it’s a disease, it’s not a funk, it’s not being a “bad” mother, it CANNOT be overcome on your own — but I hate the ads.
On a more positive note, it sounds like you’re doing well (one-day-at-a-time kind of thing), and I hope your class goes well too, I’d love to see the lace you’re interested in, and I hope the bed finally came!!!!
Thanks for the tip re: running. When I tried walk/run intervals in the spring, I kind of had my times sequenced with a certain playlist on my iPod, but not really, and I think I’ll go get a stopwatch for my wrist to make it easier for me. 🙂
I love that Everyday Cardi. My friend Heather (Pixiestikz) made one, and I loved it. It will be great in Manos.
Great news about your running and how your business is taking off.
Do you have a new bed??
I had a “Y&R” period, years ago, due to the influence of a friend, but otherwise have only watched soaps when I was nursing a baby! Maddy was definitely a “Days” baby… fond memories and the kids think it’s a hoot.
Love the title! I was a GH addict all through high school. Then Days in college. Got into Passions, which I think is absoutely the trashiest of them all, when I was on maternity leave. Also used to LOVE the Young and the Restless. Good stuff!
Not boring at all for me. A peak at you is never boring! Thanks for sharing your train of thought.